o boy...

wow a sucky ass monay and the final count down to my age. ~tear illy

we dont have much kid....

              we do however have some peace to know that happiness and sweetness, and that little bit of excitement we share can last for a long time. If we let it, if we give it a chance. If we can remember that butterflies and fast heartbeats of the small thing out shine the big flashy sometimes to big its fake things. That moment you have when you're so excited some what nervous and you get to keep those feelings for as long as they ride out. .................................................................................................................

Its worth it to say its hardly nothing and that life sucks, but you and me kid we know the truth and we share it in our secrets...

is that you heart?

child;;;; friends were missed, family members gone, lost and out of touch, even the close ones. siblings buried yet still alive. Adulthood in 10 days no more teen anything. from there forth it will be 20 something, everything! o' I wish i could marry Peter Pan. Adulthood;;;; miss friends, parents, family, new place is settled in but forever strange. things will relax but it was the perfect setting to a quick jump start for my brand "new" life. "God", reminds me of getting baptized or something! "yuck"! fucking, another summer and the last one will be a memory I tell my grand kids who will probably under a appreciate it and/or think I'm talking to much and they'll want to get away so they can have their own summer memories. That's even if i have kids. I recall a few of my memories with my grandparents but they're never enough. I miss them and I always wonder what they would say or be like now. I think things would be so different. but i would have gave anything to have keep them a little longer.


i wonder what they think of this birthday. you know whats shitty though is having them both go like a month before my birth day. few years apart but the same way.

decease

people can't live with them can't live without them. no rock, no lesbian village, no 365 days of fantasy football league. We need each other person, to person and men to women...

becoming out of_numb

breathing was just believing they said. when it rained it pored and even Jesus couldn't stop and buy an umbrella. we all stood there and took it like men. bathed in the dreary pain of love, hate, and then unknown. we'll all be stronger from what we're about to endure and jump smack dab into.

fucking_life_again

really more shit?

bi girl

                            so i never knew how complicated a non complicated media driven, sexual intent could be so out of reach. She moved and stayed and was willing to put herself out there to play. Nothing was harder than agreeing with herself that she loved the restricted and then couldn't even play it out. She hated the feeling of everything being so figuratively speaking, "miles away, just out of of arms reach". I was interested and in my own way deeply in love with the thoughts. But she was not satisfied, and I figured I could be there through this adventure and life long learning experience. Now whether i learn shit or not it was going to be weird different an about 9 others but fun was going to mask any discomfort in this equation.